Trust the journey!

IMG_6773 If you would have asked me two years ago if I ever thought I would have run a 5K I would have doubled over with laughter (right after I took a bite of my fourth slice of pizza).  Fast forward two years later and not only have a completed five 5Ks, but I also train others to go from the couch to a 5K in 10-12 weeks.  In a year and a half I managed to lose 50 lbs and become a certified fitness instructor and personal trainer. My mantra….slow and steady wins MY race.

How did I get here? It was NOT an overnight process.

A few years ago I took a Spiritual Gifts (S.H.A.P.E) class at my church.  I was a bit taken aback by the results.  Apparently, teaching, administrative, and encouragement were my top three gifts.  This class also takes into account our heart, passion, and experiences in order to determine where we can Serve our community with our gifts.  After the class I met with the instructor and told her 1) my house and office are a cluttered mess and I have no organizational skills, 2) I love to look at health/fitness/nutrition magazines and dance, but I weigh close to 200lbs and I don’t see where I can help people or how that plays into my spiritual gifts, and 3) I don’t teach so something must be wrong with my results.  Her response was, “Maybe you are just fighting your gifts and that is why you struggle”.  I thanked her and went home shaking my head and filed the class notebook away on the top of a bookshelf…..and forgot about it.

Over the next year I struggled!  I just couldn’t understand why I wasn’t happy.  I gained MORE weight, struggled with finances, alienated myself from family, burned out at work, and just felt defeated.  On top of that, I was being called to help others with fitness/nutrition.  I asked God how in the world did He expect me to not look like an idiot trying to help others achieve their fitness and nutrition goals when I now weighed over 200lbs?  He helped me realize it was about Trusting The Journey!

So, at 235 lbs I joined an online accountability group (which I now call my family) and took off down the path.  I have wonderful family and friends that have supported me along the way and are my biggest cheerleaders!   I had to get over what I thought others may think because this is MY journey, no one else’s.  The journey was about learning how to make me a priority so that I can be stronger in Mind Body, and Spirit while helping others.   I still want to lose another 60 lbs and I will get there!  I am stronger than I was yesterday.  Recently, I went back to that notebook on the shelf and was stunned to see my notes.  I wrote a statement in the margin of my results sheet on my confusion over God placing in my heart a need to help others get healthier and more fit through exercise, nutrition, and a balanced life.  Huh!  That is exactly what I have been doing this last year!    Trust the journey.