I will Overcome!

Let’s make some goals, shall we?equipped2

You guys know how I value Non Scale Victories over weighing myself.  I don’t even weigh myself unless I go to the doctor! That number on the scale has NOTHING to do with our badassery, just sayin’.

I have decided to choose a goal that I want to achieve that goes WAY back.  WAAAAY  back.  Elementary school.  I never got the President’s Fitness Challenge Seal for physical ed.  NEVER.  Why?  Because I could do everything on that list except…….a pull up.  That bothered me so much.  Two years of not getting that seal because of that….even though I could do everything else.

I was thinking of this when I visited a local gym a few years ago. The trainer asked me my goals and I said I want to be able to do a pull up.  His BRILLIANT response to his client…..chuckling while viewing his reflection in the window (to fix the well coiffed spikes in his hair)…”Oh, you can forget that.  That is an extremely difficult move.  Most men can’t even do those; women aren’t physically equipped to do it”.    I tried to ask him a few more questions about technique and training and I would have to repeat the questions because he would be staring off into space (actually at the young hotties across the room doing aerobics) and he would simply go “huh?”.  I ended up telling him….”You know, I’ve got this.  Why don’t you go do something else”.  Whiskey Tango Foxtrot!!  I ended up training myself and two other women that were trying to get help from the floor trainers that evening.

I learned two things that night….never trust a man that wears more hair gel than you and I am responsible for my own health and wellness; my passion for fitness was reawakened.  It still took a couple of more years before I truly realized that the fitness path was where I was headed.  I had to quell the noises in my head telling me “You will be laughed at, you weigh over 200 lbs.  No one will take you seriously.  You are too old to follow your passion now.  You aren’t equipped for this”.    Not only did I quell those voices, but I punched them in the throat…..now, when they try and return it is with a weak, raspy voice and I am immediately reminded that I silenced them before and I can do it again!

I embarked on a journey that I am still on and will carry as many people with me that want to follow on this intertwining path!   First, I became a Beachbody Coach and surrounded myself with likeminded and uplifting people that gave me the confidence to go back to school and become an ACE Certified Personal Trainer and Health Coach.  My main objective is to encourage folks that you can be #fitatanysize.  I want you to move more and get stronger not take a shortcut to a temporary and sometimes dangerous weight loss.  I don’t sell pills, potions, or gimmicks.  I sell you on the premise that you are worth taking responsibility for your health and wellness and I simply guide and cheer you on your permanent lifestyle change.  It is a journey I am proud and honored to be a part of.  Just because you can’t do an exercise exactly like the person next to you at the gym, doesn’t mean you can’t get a similar benefit with modification.  Shoot, I am the modifier of the modifier sometimes!  Just MOVE people!! Do what you can, how you can!

NEVER listen to those negative voices in your head.  YOU have so much to offer this world.  Make sure you use your gifts!

Sooooo, what is my NSV goal that I want to achieve by end of 2016?  I want to do a pull up.  I am not just SAYING I want to do a pull up…..I have a plan.  I will start by doing  pull ups from a supine position, then I will segue into using my assisted bands on my pull up bar and gradually remove bands until I no longer have to depend on them.  I will get there.  Why? Because I believe I can do it.  I AM equipped; and by the end of 2016 I will be stronger because I overcame something I thought I could never do!
Let me hear your goals for the rest of the year!  Be specific, put it out to the universe, make a plan, and crush it!

Trust the journey!

IMG_6773 If you would have asked me two years ago if I ever thought I would have run a 5K I would have doubled over with laughter (right after I took a bite of my fourth slice of pizza).  Fast forward two years later and not only have a completed five 5Ks, but I also train others to go from the couch to a 5K in 10-12 weeks.  In a year and a half I managed to lose 50 lbs and become a certified fitness instructor and personal trainer. My mantra….slow and steady wins MY race.

How did I get here? It was NOT an overnight process.

A few years ago I took a Spiritual Gifts (S.H.A.P.E) class at my church.  I was a bit taken aback by the results.  Apparently, teaching, administrative, and encouragement were my top three gifts.  This class also takes into account our heart, passion, and experiences in order to determine where we can Serve our community with our gifts.  After the class I met with the instructor and told her 1) my house and office are a cluttered mess and I have no organizational skills, 2) I love to look at health/fitness/nutrition magazines and dance, but I weigh close to 200lbs and I don’t see where I can help people or how that plays into my spiritual gifts, and 3) I don’t teach so something must be wrong with my results.  Her response was, “Maybe you are just fighting your gifts and that is why you struggle”.  I thanked her and went home shaking my head and filed the class notebook away on the top of a bookshelf…..and forgot about it.

Over the next year I struggled!  I just couldn’t understand why I wasn’t happy.  I gained MORE weight, struggled with finances, alienated myself from family, burned out at work, and just felt defeated.  On top of that, I was being called to help others with fitness/nutrition.  I asked God how in the world did He expect me to not look like an idiot trying to help others achieve their fitness and nutrition goals when I now weighed over 200lbs?  He helped me realize it was about Trusting The Journey!

So, at 235 lbs I joined an online accountability group (which I now call my family) and took off down the path.  I have wonderful family and friends that have supported me along the way and are my biggest cheerleaders!   I had to get over what I thought others may think because this is MY journey, no one else’s.  The journey was about learning how to make me a priority so that I can be stronger in Mind Body, and Spirit while helping others.   I still want to lose another 60 lbs and I will get there!  I am stronger than I was yesterday.  Recently, I went back to that notebook on the shelf and was stunned to see my notes.  I wrote a statement in the margin of my results sheet on my confusion over God placing in my heart a need to help others get healthier and more fit through exercise, nutrition, and a balanced life.  Huh!  That is exactly what I have been doing this last year!    Trust the journey.